Last night I dreamt that one of my friends had cancer. She was still waiting for the test results to come back, but she was sure that they would reveal that she had cancer. The dream, like most dreams, had events that were surreal and things that could only happen in a dream, but the premise of the whole thing was terrifying. I am sure that it was sparked by the fact that I spent several minutes describing in depth some of the tests that I had gone through to my boyfriend earlier in the day, and how it can take forever to receive test results. None the less, it was terrifying.
This morning I ran into a colleague who told me that each time she saw me she thanked God that I was still alive and walking around. This is not someone with whom I work closely, but someone who I pass regularly in the hall, and who has always been kind and sincere in asking how I am doing and feeling. I think that people around me are more amazed at what I have been through that I am. Perhaps because the entire ordeal is still unreal to me. When I tell people that I have had a stroke it is as if I am telling them about someone else - not me. I am still in disbelief, as I am sure many of my friends, relatives, and coworkers are.
Maybe that is why the dream about my friend having cancer affected me so deeply. It is completely unbelievable, but like a stroke, it can (and does) happen to anyone.