I should be used to it by now... the waiting, the anticipation, the news, the no news, the anxiety, and perhaps most prominent of all, the frustration. Yes, after all of my numerous visits, countless tests, blood draws, scans, xrays, MRIs, I still hold out hope that the next time it will be different. But more often than not, I am disappointed.
I am a repeat customer at my hospital. If any one of my doctors spent time reading over my chart, they would see that I am an excellent client - good for them, bad for me. Three knee surgeries, stroke, open-heart surgery, pneumonia, all within in the past 6 years. Pretty good stuff, right, and for someone who has not even reached the age of 40. And lucky me, I managed to do something to my knee again, two days ago.
Not just a little something, but something so painful that I am unable to put weight down on my leg. So painful that it keeps me up at night, and so painful that just looking at stairs causes panic. You might say, well I am a klutz or I need to take better care of myself. That is the irony of it all - low blood pressure, no smoking, and a fitness instructor, so stuff like this should just not happen.
But let's get back to the doctors, and my frequent "shopping" card at my hospital. It takes very little for a doctor to look at my chart and see that when I am calling and asking a question, I am not trying to be difficult, but simply looking for a response. I do not think that it is too much to ask that I receive a response in 24 hours. So when I called my orthopedic doctor a while back and left a message that I was in a considerable amount of pain and it would be helpful to have the results, I was less than thrilled when I had not heard anything by the next day. I called back almost 48 hours later and was told that in order to find out my MRI results I would have to speak to radiology, and my orthopedic doctor would be given another message but that he was really busy (yes, I am aware of this, the first time I met with him I waited in the office for 2 1/2 hours...) Radiology told me they would not give me the results as my doctor needed to give them to me, and so I was being bounced around like a ping-pong ball. Oh, as far as my pain goes, they told me to increase the Advil and I could come in for a cortisone shot. Um, no thanks. I have had one of those (2 in fact) and they don't work. Neither, for that matter, does the Advil... And I informed them that I really looked forward to coming in and waiting to be seen. It just rocks.
I suddenly was reminded of 2006 and the preparation for my heart surgery. I was not given direct answers, and often the answer that most people agreed upon was a run around response. So, I consider myself an "expert" in the medical system, and I am continually disappointed. There should be some kind of points card for frequent visitors (patients) at hospitals. You know, those of us who unfortunately are more familiar with some aspects of the medical care system than our own doctors are.
I know that my circumstances are by no means unique. Sadly, my situation (the lack of response, apathy, and wait time) probably happens to most people. Why is it that when a doctor treats patient with respect that it is cause for celebration? Or when a patient is seen within 5-10 minutes of the scheduled appointment it is considered "on time"? Yes, there are many other variables at play here, and I am well aware of these (patients can be late too etc), but as a frequent patient I think that expectations and outcomes should be higher.